A Shrinking World

 

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“Do I know you?” Spike asked, peering at the stranger sitting in front of him. She smirked, as did his daughter…and everyone else in the room. This unified front of amusement was a cause for concern.

 

Dawn stepped closer to Spike, taking in the changes that being dalhari had wrought upon him. It had been a very long time since she’d seen him last, but she still had an image of him burned in her brain, one that hadn’t changed despite all that Rali had told her about her father. Now that she could see what Spike had become, though, that picture was being supplanted. The thing was, it wasn’t the physical changes that really caught her attention. Oh, he certainly looked different; wings and a tail and dalhari eyes weren’t easy to hide. But it was something else, something less tangible, that caused her to look further. He seemed peaceful, happy and content, even though her presence obviously unnerved him. She could tell he didn’t recognize her. “You don’t remember me, Spike?”

 

Spike looked harder at the young dalhari. The more he stared, the more the felt that he should recognize her, but he didn’t. The shape of her face, the tone of her voice, it all seemed so familiar, yet he was certain he’d never run across her in all his travels. “You look…”

 

“Familiar?” Rali interjected helpfully. Spike scowled at his daughter. “Iriya should look quite familiar, father. You did know her, once upon a time.”

 

The pale dalhari frowned harder. It was just like his daughter to not help any, even when she seemed helpful. Not for the first time he wished he’d never taught her how to play mindgames. Turning his attention back to Iriya, the stranger, he worked harder. He got the distinct impression he was being tested, not something he particularly liked. Since her face seemed familiar, he focused on that. Where had he seen it before? A friend’s child, perhaps?

 

After a moment, Spike closed his eyes. The curve of her cheek just under the eye, the way her mouth crooked to one side as if he amused her, the look of vulnerability…the colors of the mental picture he painted faded away, leaving him a plain, black and white image. “Dawn?” He whispered tremulously. It couldn’t be her…she was in Sunnydale.

 

Hiya Spike. I ran into Rali in Tereva’diel and thought I’d swing by to see how you were doing,” Dawn said lightly, trying to hide some of her emotions.

 

Spike ignored her attempts, stepping forward to grab her. He enveloped the young woman in a tight hug, completely uncaring of the tears streaming down his face. This was Dawn, alright, despite the change in species. He couldn’t believe she was here, in his world. At the moment, he didn’t care how or why. She’d been one of the few things he’d actually missed about Sunnydale, although he’d not thought about her for a long time—dwelling on things he couldn’t change just made him feel bad.

 

Rali stood with her mother and grandparents while Iriya and Laio reconnected. They all knew how much the teenaged human had meant to Spike, how important it had been for him that she considered him a friend despite what he was. In the centuries he’d lived among their family, most of that time as a dalhari, the majority of his old wounds had healed. Iriya’s arrival, however, would go far towards resolving old emotional injuries he’d never quite erased.

 

Dawn stood pressed against Spike, her face happily buried in the soft leathers that covered his chest. He smelled like herbs and ifnan and Spike—a change from whiskey, cigarettes, blood and Spike. She thought that it was a good change, though. Abruptly, Spike pulled away, staring down at her with a fierce frown on his face.

 

“Why do you smell like Rali?” He asked sharply. After a moment, he looked over at his daughter.

 

“What have you done to her, Rali?” Spike inquired accusingly.

 

Rali just lifted an eyebrow. “I’d think, father, that after all these years and the birth of your first child, you would have figured that out by now. However, if you need instruction on that matter, I’m sure that Gaha and Waei are more than capable of informing you about the mat—“

 

“That’s enough, Rali,” Spike said, cutting off his daughter’s typically wisecracking reply. Her answer reassured him that whatever was going on between Dawn and her was completely consensual. Between her and Dawn… “When’s the bonding?”

 

Dawn’s jaw dropped. “What bonding? There’s going to be a bonding? Where? When?”

 

“We’re not bonding!” Rali insisted. Well, okay, they were going to eventually, if she had anything to do with it, but that was there decision. Why did everyone have to keep asking that question? It was getting a bit annoying.

 

It was Spike’s turn to raise an eyebrow and send a look toward Rali. “Daughter…” He said warningly, not needing to finish the sentence. Rali blanched. She should have seen this coming—Laio was going to have very strong feelings about what went on between the two most important children in his life—one from his past and one from his present. It would do both her and Iriya good to simply not argue about it right now.

 

“Have you eaten yet?” Gaha asked, hoping to divert Laio’s attention from what might become a heated argument.

 

“No,” He replied, rolling his eyes. Spike knew what Gaha was trying to do, but he didn’t mind. How could he, when he had Dawn in front of him—and Rali. He’d missed his daughter dearly when she’d gone off to Tereva’diel. Now she’d returned, which was a gift in and of itself. The fact that she’d brought along someone he never thought he’d see again was almost beyond comprehension.

 

Waei waved them all back toward the fireplace and provided Laio with some warm supper. The elders sat back and watched in awe as Laio and Iriya—Spike and Dawn—caught up. It was a fascinating thing to watch and listen to; tears flowed freely as they switched seamlessly between their native tongues and the dalhari one. Both Waei and Gaha jumped when Laio scolded Iriya for doing the incredibly irresponsible and following Xander across dimensions. She didn’t even blink, though, just told him that she’d chastised herself enough for one lifetime and that he could just get over it. He blinked a couple of times, and then nodded, knowing it was probably true.

 

When the discussion turned to her sister, Iriya was a bit quieter. She truly regretted leaving her sister behind and knew that Buffy probably worried herself to death over her. That turned the discussion to Xander and how he and Laio had figured that time flowed differently between the worlds. Iriya added some theories she’d developed about the human tongue being the one they spoke in their dimension, and at one point Iriya made the comment that there was every chance their friends were still alive and kicking in Sunnydale. Laio wasn’t so sure, but he didn’t argue too much. Every so often he got a sort of glazed look, complete with a silly grin. It was very obvious he was happy.

 

It was well past midday before the conversation slowed enough for Del to ask a question she’d had for hours. In between spates of nostalgia and curiosity, she posited it to Laio. “By the way, Laio, why did you come here last evening? I thought you were working in the dyeshop.”

 

Spike looked at her blankly for a moment, and then cursed vehemently. “Fuck! I forgot. Waei, there’s a group of orth coming in from Ranver. They have a trade dispute; it seems they claim that the Disiaron have broken a contract.”

 

Waei groaned. “Them again? Why can’t they go away? We’re honoring the contract they signed; it’s not our fault they underestimated what they’d be needing.”

 

Rali looked over at Iriya. The musician was just about gone; riding all day and talking all night and half of the following day had worn her out. “I think we should get some rest; Iriya’s not used to all-night family meetings. Besides, neither of us will be any help during this dispute.”

 

Del nodded and helped Iriya stand. “We’ll have food sent over later; your quarters were aired out last night.” Spike and the others rose with the pair and wished them a fond farewell, full of promises to meet again that evening for another round of reacquaintance.

 

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Spike watched his daughter and Dawn walk hand in hand down the hallway toward Rali’s quarters. “It’s difficult to believe, isn’t it?” Del whispered to him as the young women rounded a corner and disappeared from sight.

 

“They’re both too young to bond,” He muttered to himself. “They’re barely a century old.”

 

Del snorted. “And you were how old when we bonded? Not much older than Rali—or Dawn, for that matter.”

 

“But you were older, much older,” Spike countered.

 

“They’re not too old and you know it, Laio. You just don’t want to see your daughter grow up,” Del accused.

 

“Do you?” Spike asked sharply. “She’s so…”

 

“She’s in love. And don’t you tell me you can think of a better person for her. If even a tenth of what you used to say about Iriya is true, she’s more than good enough.”

 

Spike sighed. “And that’s the other thing. I know it’s been a long time, but I can’t help but think of Dawn—Iriya—as a kid, a teenager with gangly legs and a crush on Xander.”

 

“I don’t think she has a crush on Xander anymore,” Del remarked. “In fact, I’m sure of it.”

 

“She’s going to go see him,” Spike commented. “They just got here, but they’re going to leave again.”

 

“Perhaps not immediately,” Del said. “After all, they did just get here. Unless they leave right away, they’ll have to wait until next spring, or risk getting caught in the mountains.”

 

“They could stay in Ke’reo Der with Baura,” Spike suggested. “Since he seems to be in no hurry to come back here to visit. It’s been more than a century.”

 

“I know,” Del sighed. She wished her younger brother would communicate with the family more often, but he was considerably quieter than any of them…which was saying something. He’d left home still a child, and they were lucky if they got a letter every third or fourth year—although those letters tended to be quite detailed and lovingly written. He was following a difficult religious path, and until he was comfortable with his progress, they wouldn’t see very much of him. Del wasn’t overly worried, though, since his letters always included mentions of friends and mentors who looked after him.

 

“Or perhaps they could stop by on their way back,” He continued. “Even if they stayed a year or two in Tragith with Xander and his family.”

 

“You should mention it to Rali. She would very much like to see her uncle again,” Del replied softly. She tugged on his arm to bring him back to her parents’ quarters. The news he’d brought had been troubling enough that they probably needed to listen to the elders gripe about it, particularly since it involved her own trade.

 

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“Are you happy?”

 

Dawn turned when she heard the whispered question. “Happy? At seeing Spike? Of course I am.” She sat down on the edge of their bed and began to remove her boots. “He’s different. Calmer, at peace. I think your mother is good for him.”

 

Rali laughed. “I think being dalhari is good for him,” She countered. “According to him, anyway. My mother is just…”

 

“The light in his eyes,” Dawn finished. “I see how they look at each other—like if we hadn’t been there they’d be naked and—“

 

“They’re my parents,” Rali warned. “And yes, they would be. It’s a good think none of us are very concerned with nudity, because those two have a difficult time staying clothed when they’re together.”

 

“That I can see,” Dawn said, giggling. She remembered how diligently Spike had pursued her sister and wasn’t surprised by his behavior here.

 

“I just wish that they’d let up on the bonding thing,” Rali complained as she started a small fire. “It’s getting annoying. Chadei, Gaha, Waei, Del, Laio…”

 

Dawn didn’t say anything for several minutes. “Does it bother you that much?” She asked eventually.

 

Rali’s head whipped around. The tone of Iriya’s voice was odd—almost sad. “No, I simply dislike it when others nose about in my affairs. When and how I ask you to bond is none of their business.”

 

“I see,” Dawn murmured. She wasn’t really reassured by that statement. It still seemed to her that Rali was feeling trapped by everyone’s expectations that they bond. While it was true that the majority of courtships that had progressed as far as theirs had ended in bonding, not all did, and there was no law or rule, written or otherwise, that said that they had to bond. Neither of them would be looked down upon for breaking off their relationship, so long as they had a reason for it.

 

Rali watched Iriya carefully. She’d been afraid of this ever since their elders and parents had started mentioning bonding—that regardless of how they handled it, one or both of them would start worrying about how the other felt. It was obvious that Iriya didn’t understand the depths of her feelings. Sighing softly, Rali stood and walked over to the dispirited dalhari, sitting beside her on the bed. “Iriya, I have every intention of bonding with you, if you so allow it. I have never, nor will I ever, meet another so well-suited to me. We, I believe, are meant for each other. I simply believe that we should wait until we are both ready to bond—after you’ve seen Na’alha, visited with Xander and decided where you would like to live.”

 

“I want to live wherever you are,” Dawn responded quietly.

 

“And I wish to reside where you are, which leaves us with no answers,” Rali said lightly. “We are both young and have time to think about such things. Why should be bend to the pressures that others put upon us? Was it not you who said that rules were there to be bent?”

 

“Me? I’d never say that!” Dawn joked. “I know what you mean, Rali. It’s just difficult to put up with all the poking and prodding.”

 

“Yes, and unfortunately my family is much worse than yours. My father and mother’s courtship was unusual due to the lack of parental involvement, among other things. And, with my uncle gone, no one has anything else to do. I suspect that as long as we’re here, we’re going to get pressured about it.”

 

“Ah,” Dawn murmured. “Perhaps we should go see Xander sooner rather than later. Once we’ve returned from that trip, we can do battle with your family.”

 

“Or, we can do battle with them, then get relief by visiting with Xander,” Rali shot back quickly.

 

“Either way…I don’t feel up to deciding tonight,” Dawn finished. “I just want to sleep for a few days.”

 

“That’s all? Sleep?” Rali inquired mischievously.

 

Dawn gave her an evil smirk. “No, I can think of a few things I’d like to do,” She replied. “But I’d rather do them once I’m awake enough to enjoy them.”

“Point,” Rali murmured as they pulled back the covers and burrowed into the bed. “Sleep well.”

 

“And you.”

 

 

 

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